Love and Fear

 

Love and Fear

Today, more and more, we are hearing the words, “It is not personal”. For those of us emerging into the conscious awareness of the reality that has always lain beneath and beyond the human perceptual disorder of Separation, these four small words have the power to illuminate every aspect of our understanding and conceptualization.  Over the past week or so, I have been led to re-examine my understandings of Love and Fear through the illumination that those words provide: It is not personal. I have also felt a sense of the importance and timely preparedness that this illumination can provide.

In Christian Scripture, there is mention of The Spirit of Fear and The Spirit of Love. In this metaphor (and everything is a metaphor) two energies flow. And like energy is bound to do, it flows into where there is space for it. They are not personal. You do not create them, nor are they products of your efforts. Both Love and Fear are autonomous energies.

Historically, within the space each of us has been given to hold, Fear and Love have seemed to each find some measure of expression. This has been the Tao of our existence. This has been a hallmark of the human epoch; there has been the heart of doubt and the heart of faith in an uneasy alliance. As St. Paul said, “We see as but through a glass darkly”. Such was the human condition. But darkness and light are by their natures an impossible pairing. One is simply the absence of the other. Of course there is a gradient quality at twilight and dawn. Today we stand at the moment of the Dawn. In the days to come, what was gradient will become radiant.

Many people are sensing that our planet is on the cusp of a momentous shift. This is the dawn that I spoke of. The grip of Fear and its by-product of fractionalization will give way to the inhabitation of Love and its informing nature of Oneness.  However, for that change to fully take effect, the Spirit of Fear must find no more branch upon which to nest. Literally, it must find no more home upon this planet. And how might this happen? These two energies are even now beginning to flare like sunspots or smoldering fires which burst into flame. In the days to come they will simply pulse with an ever accelerating energy. As they move like cosmic winds upon the face of this planet, they will fill, with a heretofore unknown intensity those spaces which are receptive to them. Fear will fill the spaces available to Fear and Love those places open to Love. There will be possible neither resistance nor the adaptive accommodation to which we have been accustomed. Such will be the force of Fear that it will fill to breaking every place it finds. The human heart will simply not be big or strong enough to contain it. Courage of the sort informed by conceptualization and idealized understandings will fail. Eventually, Fear will simply burn itself out as it consumes every resting place. It is not personal. It does not know your name. It does not judge you according to your actions or intents. It will simply fill to breaking every space available to it. Likewise the Spirit of Love will fill those places which have been made ready. It too, will burst and burn all that it enters. The shell of our ignorance will be consumed, likewise our confusion. In the Fire of Love all that is not Love shall be melted away to reveal the quintessential base metal of our eternal nature. It too, is not personal. It will not stand at a distance and weigh your worth, actions or the achievements of your understandings. It will simply flow to those spaces which have been prepared to receive it.

I would like to take a moment to address an issue that lingers for many: the idea that some will be consumed by Fear and that some will be revealed by Love. To some, this smacks of the Judgement Day scenarios that drove us to recoil from our parent’s religion. To some, this simply seems unfair. But I tell you that this too is impersonal. This process is not about the individual, nor their “salvation” or survival. It is a process for the planet. Every soul is here to play a part in that story, in that awakening, and in that Dawn. We are not being judged or culled. We are not separate things with different worth.  We are but One thing, both component and complete, and inseparable.  The narrative unfolding is a narrative specific to place, this Planet and its Consciousness. Each soul is a volunteer in that creation and fulfillment thereof. Each soul that passes beyond this narrative, rooted in time and place, resumes the fullest glory of its nature in timelessness. Suffering, and surely some will suffer, is a momentary function arising in time and space only. Whatever it may appear in that context, it will not remain outside of it. Judgement is the tool of the Ego which seeks to differentiate itself through being more or less worthy versus another. What is to come is the end of that which resonated in the Egoic Age, not a vindication of its most ignorant assumptions. Every soul is a hero in the times to come. Each of us will play only the part we have been given. All is in Grace.

I sense, that even now, this time I am speaking of is very near at hand. Today, many are in an accelerated moment of preparation. For those of us holding the space for Love, many are, even now, being shown any corner where Fear might find a home. Even the smallest of attachments, the most benign of egoic understanding can be a fissure which the pressure of an accelerated Fear can crack. Further, I am being shown that the space for the Spirit of Love has no room for my ideas of Love. In the main, these were nought but my ideations and comforts in response to Fear. I do not need to exercise Love-it is strong. I do not need to understand Love-it is beyond my conceptualization. It requires nothing of me beyond the space I hold and the Grace I have been given to see where “I” has thought to possess it. The Love that will shine when Fear has burnt itself out is also not personal. It is identity rather than a comfort or comparative merit. It does not exist in nor emanate from the fractured egoic identity. Do you know Love? Or do you know what the egoic self has imagined love to be. One is ideation. The other is the Spirit which fills. Today, I am being challenged to abandon all thought. It arose out of my ignorance. I need but let a thing be, it is Self-informing. Today, I allow the lesson of Light to show me those places where Fear might find a home. And in the process of observing I become the Observer and no Fear can resist its gaze.

Avtar, in Wisdom

PS: I would encourage each one for whom this message resonates to be resolute in shifting your attention to the present. The only future you need now concern yourself with is the one that reveals itself to you now. This is the time of paying close attention to what is being revealed to you in a process of preparation. The past and present are but dreams. To be awake is not to dream, but rather to be fully present in this day and the lesson you are being shown. May the Grace of God and the fullness of the Holy Spirit be upon you.

Whose Awakening is it Anyway?

Early in my awakening it became clear that, while I might be having an intensely subjective experience of awakening, it was not my awakening I was participating in, but rather, Awakening. It is not my Awakening.

Emerging from the conceptual morass of the egoic, or separation, paradigm, this was not a "natural" thought. Every thought I had had, to that time, revolved around the axis of the separate "I". Religion had taught me that it was my salvation, or my damnation. That it was my relationship to the eternal that was my concern. It was my actions, my challenge, and my responsibility. (I will say, as an aside, that, having had a reasonable level of self-knowledge and a fairly clear eye in evaluating same, I did not fancy my chances!)

We are smack dab in the middle of the "separation mind" and few thoughts that arise are untainted by it. But the Awakening we enter is One Consciousness-Indivisible.

As I allowed my attention to be drawn to what was around me (rather than seeking to see what should be there), I began to notice something: There were a number of others having similar awakenings, with similar narrative or content, sharing a similar timeline. Though this was "proof" of nothing, it did plant the seeds of a question: Was it possible that Consciousness was awakening, in a similar way, with a similar narrative, through many, and at the same time? Whose awakening was it anyway?

Kelp

One day, I had a meditation that was very useful to me in "getting" this idea. I saw a vision of kelp-a great forest of kelp that covered the sea bed as far as the eye could see. Millions of individuated strands rose toward the light above, but each grounded in the same source, each surrounded by the same water. Millions of strands, but only one forest, one sea, and one Sun. I watched as a current began to move through these waters. As it moved, these strands of kelp moved too, in unison, as they gracefully undulated before this invisible force. One Source, One Sun, millions of strands, One movement, One dance.

Isolation

It has been almost three years from the moment I would mark as the time when awakening began inside of my perceptual awareness. Most of that time I have spent (ironically?) in intense isolation as I sought to clear and comprehend. The first year might be characterized as beautiful and agonizing bewilderment, the second as stepping back into a world changed, and the third as practicing the understanding that there is nothing to be gained, merely shed. Shine! Through all these (grossly oversimplified) stages, there was one constant-isolation.

When I say isolation what do I mean? I do not, in the whole, use this word in a sense of anguish or want, as in alone, or cut off. I simply mean that I was off in God and me land, content and well occupied.

It might be said that my isolation was a product of a number of things: 1) the intense focus needed to apply continual mindful attention to what was happening inside of me, and to how that was changing my perception of the world around me, 2) my absolute astonishment with and love for what was unfolding, 3) a deep distrust of the words and commitments of others, and 4) an inherited and abiding lack of confidence and worth, in regard to my own wider value.

I wonder how many others have wandered, or continue to wander, in this land of isolation? Knowing the great and eternal nature of what arises within, how many stand alone rather than seek the comfort of society, lest what is Holy be profaned or trivialized? Are there others who would walk alone in quiet certainty rather than endure the misapprehensions and scrutiny of others? How many gifts are being anguished over, too heavy for one to lift? How many stay silent out of a fear, or discomfort, that what they have seen, what they have felt, or what they would say, is too different, too outrageous, too certain to bring down the scorn or judgement of others?  Who, like me, allows their light to be a secret treasure and a source of separate pride?

The Dance of Kelp

Above is a wonderful image that was done by Scott Chitwood. It, like one earlier on in this post, is a picture of a kelp forest. In the words of its creator, "Gentle undulations of the sea snatch afternoon sunshine in playful whimsy; colourful patches of light dance amongst giant kelp." To me, this is a gorgeous representation of what happens when much movement becomes a single thing. Energy, light, current, and flow all combine for one breathtaking expression.

A Single Strand

We are, each of us, perfect. Together, however, we are the very dance of formlessness in form, timelessness in time, and the Creator becoming Creation.

Today, if you have made it this far, you know of what I speak. Together we prepare to receive the understanding that you are not like me, you are me.

I would say this to you who joins me in this time and place, the time of preparation is over. The agonies of the "personal" are over. We are being called to Unity-now. This year, these next few months, let us hear our calling. It is time. That which is indivisible has no business with the neurosis of egoic separation. The "judging mind"  is the key, the very foundation, of the egoic paradigm. Without it, it will crumble. Join me in letting go of judgement, that which arises within knows all things anyway. You need not be concerned. You are safe. You and I are One. We are the very Energy and Intelligence of the Universe stirred up to remembrance. Flow! Let go!

I encourage you to join with me now in both The Great Mystery and action. Arise! Leave a comment, a story, a poem, a picture, or a link in the comments section. Sing with me now. Dance with me now!

Whose awakening is it anyway? It is ours and all. We who have the Grace to perceive it, to feel it as it courses through our veins, are blessed beyond measure.

I leave you with some words to a new song that I am writing. Its about you and me, and me and me, and a little mystery, baby!

Dancing

You and me

In the place where eyes and time can't see

You and me

Dancing through eternity

We are more

Than we seem

As we wake up

From this dream

We're dancing

May you know the Light and Love that is around you all the time, and when time is no more.